So Sore

My calf muscles are killing me... ahhhhh.... lol... and I am kinda in a frumpy mood and just feel like pigging out and being lazy all while at the same time I want to work harder and find better foods to eat... lol... tomorrow will be day three of the Jillian Michales shred... I wont make it to day 30 as me and my mom are doing it together and i go away to my bowling tourny in less than 30 days!

anyways... my mind is all over the place today so sorry if I randomly jump from one topic to the next lol

my mom read or heard somewhere that you should eat the same thing everyday for breakfast and lunch... I couldnt do that forever because I get sick of things pretty quick but I think I am going to try to eat the same thing for B and L for a week (work week lol) then switch it up to something different for the next week... we will see... i seem to be hungry all the time so i need to make some better food choices as i have been eating 2pt snacks but they dont fill me up so it seems like a waste of 2 points because 10 min later I am looking for something else to eat... oh boy!!

This is getting harder and harder :( but i will keep pushing because it isn't an option to fail! I can have a bad week but that doesn't mean I failed it just means I need to keep going and keep working...

another rambling, I hate when people are like 'oh you look good; i wish i could lose weight!' i just think -uh wtf? you can!- I just say to them 'yea it is hard, i really watch what I eat and exercise almost everyday'  there response after that is usually oh i dont have the time... i dont usually say anything after that...

BUT people need to realize that you need to make time... im sure you watch tv some times or play on the computer or lounge in the sun... thats your time... you need to fit it in because your health is too important to forget about!! thats when you get sick and injured and feel like crap and that is the stuff that you DONT have time for...
you have a family? get them involved! you work odd hours? go before work/after find a gym that is 24hr! people just love to find excuses and reasons not to take responsibility, its your body you are the ONLY ONE responsible... ahhhh...

anyways I am hoping this week starts to get better and i don't feel so overwhelmed by working on my health... its almost the TOM so i think that is partially why I want to eat everything i see... lol... so be strong for a few days then it will pass =) lol