ugh

this sucks so much...
one minute I am happy the next I am in tears... I don't know what to do or what to think... I am just so hurt that the person who I thought was the love of my life could just walk away just like that... he just up and moved to another city...
ahhhhh!!!! i know I am overanalyzing this and that it is only going to make things harder... I am an analytical person... I need answers I need reasons... I dunno, I guess I got some answers like why he left but I just can't believe he wouldn't talk to me about anything... about how he felt... that is what kills me... I am trying not to think about it... not to let it stress me out but it is hard... he was the world to me...

someone said 'why does HE determine YOUR happiness?'
well he doesn't really... I am happy for the most part... The only thing I am sad about is him leaving... he didn't define me he didn't make or break my day... he did make me happier... I enjoyed talking to him... spending time with him... getting advice from him... but he didn't determine if a day was a good day or not..

I don't know... I just miss him and I don't really have any people here to talk to about it so I guess I am posting it on the internet for anyone to see... lol...

I miss him