30 September 2012


So... I spent the weekend hanging out with my friend and nutrition went downhill!  She somehow can eat all the junk food in the world and still lose weight and I kind of went along with it and ate way way way too bad!  Weighing in tomorrow is not going to be a good one at all!  Ugh!

Guess I just need to work twice as hard this week.  I need more self control to make better decisions! Just a little disappointed in myself but I can't let this bring me down.  I need to keep working at this!  I need to succeed at this again!

Basically I want to lose 25-30 lbs by Christmas and then lose the rest of what I need to at basic!

Anyways, maybe I should run on my treadmill right now to try and make up for the weekend....

28 September 2012


So glad today was friday!  What a day!

For once in my life I get up early and plan on heading to work early and getting a coffee and having a good day!  Boy was I wrong!
While getting ready for work, washing my face, I get a random nose bleed! Ugh... Sometimes these can last 20+ mins! ... great...
Finally get that under control and now rushing to get ready to get to work... Hoping maybe I still have a quick minute to grab a coffee... Lined up out the door!  Fine no coffee for me!
Get to work - remembered it is civy day is you pay $3... I don't have any cash - into my uniform I go.  Once I am dressed I go see my MCpl for 0730... who tells me I am going to the gym to participate in a measurement survey... so I need to change back into my civys and head to the gym.
Get there and it is measurements all right... you strip down to your bra and underwear and go to all these different stations and get a millions measurements.  You get drawn on and stickers put on for a 3D image.  It was pretty cool to participate but sucked that you had to be pretty much naked! lol
Anyway, 2 hours later, get back to work, get changed (again!) and see they are setting up for a lunch BBQ - $5.00 - I still have no cash.  I get to sit there eating my oatmeal while everyone is eating burgers! A few people offered to front me some cash (which I declined) but it was kind of good because I can still watch what I eat BUT sucks to not be participating with everyone else!
After lunch the day smoothed out and everything was good!
The morning wasn't bad per say - just crazy! It wore me out!

I was going to skip exercising today BUT messaged my friend and said I would do to the gym with her and was so happy that I did!!  I saw a Doc from our clinic and met a paramedic that is willing to sell me some books for really cheap...  So in the end it was a pretty awesome, crazy, interesting day!


25 September 2012

Day 2

what a day!

I take my car in for an issue that has been bothering me that I had been told several times was a non-issue... finally this place told me what it was and also informs me the I am 16 days past warranty... ugh!  If the first few people I went to about it would have actually told me what the issue was I could have had it fixed under warranty!

Anyways, I was going to pick my car up after work & was probably going to skip my run BUT my MCpl said another girl and I should go together.  So I got 2 good things out of that - went for my run & got a ride to my car! :)

As for watching what I ate today I kept of track!  Usually Thursday or Friday night is when I fall apart so I will be trying extra hard those days!

Now off to rest my sore tired body...

24 September 2012

Starting All Over Again

Well I hate to admit it BUT I fell off the wagon! :(  In 2010 I put so much work and effort into losing weight and getting healthy.  I got myself down to the smallest weight I ever remember!  One day I even saw a 149.8 on the scale.  I didn't even think it was possible to me to hit the 140s! But over the last two years I relapsed back into my old ways & not having the self-control to stop myself from binging.

I NEED to make this commitment again!  I NEED to stick to it!  I joined the military so basically my job is on the line.  Even at this weight I can pass the fitness test BUT I need to get into better shape as I will have a very hard time at basic if I don't get back into shape.

Today is another one of many many previous Day Ones & hopefully the last Day One!  Today went well!  Watched how much food I took in today and did a killer 5.5km run.  It's unfortunate I have to go through this process again but hopefully this time I don't slip back.

The biggest problem was I moved to BC with my parents & brother.  My Aunt, Uncle, Cousin & Family, and my Grandparents all live here.  At the beginning I kept things together fairly well and maintained a steady weight. BUT my whole family struggles with weight issues and I fell back into my bad habits because everyone around me had bad habits.  When I was down to 150/155 many family members said I was to skinny - my BMI was still overweight @ 155 - so I think them thinking I was too small gave me an excuse to stop watching what I ate & stop working out. I got a part-time job waitressing and that was a killer!  Eating at work was bad & going out drinking with co-workers every weekend.  It was a great time and I had lots of fun BUT my body did not enjoy it as much! Then I went to Paramedic school & that was intense.  Lots of work, lots of long days studying, lack of physical fitness and lack of watching what I eat!

Anyway, Day One is OVER!  Day One was a success!  Just have to keep this train rolling! :)